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| wow its been over a year since ive done this. just though id spill my soul into this thing because i know no one but me will ever see it. well me, and those i choose to show it to. but if youre reading this and i was not the one who told you to, nice you get to hear about my life for the past year. been rather crazy actually. worked at elephant bar, that was a blast. made hella money. over 100 a nite, more if it was a good day. been studying hard at csm. still had time to play though. hopefully i get into a good college. im getting sick of being in san mateo. the people, the sites, the life, everything. i'm ready, and starving for a change. probably the most significant thing to happen to me since my prediction with khan's true love is well, me finding my love. falling in love, what a wonderful thing. Patricia Jade Lam, second girlfriend, first i fell in love with. but now, it hurts. it hurts a lot. we broke up about 3 weeks back. it's been hard, really hard. i used to love having her on my mind when i go to bed, and when i wake up, but now the joy her face used to bring me only reminds me of the pain i feel to know that i can no longer hold her in my arms like i did before. it hurts, a lot more than eunice. where to start? dont think i have time to go over my entire relationship, even though it would be interesting to read later in years. i think ill just highlight the main points. so i walked into the csm cafeteria at the beginning of school. deteremined that i will get the grades to get into berkeley. no time for woman, not like any would find me itnerstering enough to date.....but ya. focus focus focus. i sit down to this cute girl, which im sure either has a bf or would not be interested in me. we sat together, stealing glances at eachother while studying, then i asked "do you know where i can get a parking permit?" smooth, eh? lol. but not really. she told me i could go next door to get it. i thanked her and then she asked me if i was new. i said yes and then we started chatting. later on i asked her to have lunch wiht me. i took her to bento box and we enjoyed the great weather in the park. beautiful day that was. sun was shining, weather was perfect. not too hot, very light breeze. perfection. i kissed her in the gazebo. wow, thinking bak....that really is a nice story of a first kiss. enjoyed lunch in the park. took a stroll through the garden and ended up in the gazebo where i gently brought her body close to mine and pressed my lips to hers. makes me happy to think of how we had a great start, but makes me more sad to know i won't ever experience that with her again. ...moving on. we spent 12 happy months together. we went to vegas together. went to parties and clubs. everything. i can still remember the first night we said "i love you" to each other. it was outside her house, late a nite. we had just come bak from a date, either club or movies, i dont remember. but we just looked at each other for the longest time. and when she said it, she cried. and i embraced her with everything i was. we kissed and knew it was going ot be a great relationship. that night was wonderful, truly magical. dont really know when things started to go wrong. or why they really did. in fact....i dont want to remmeber the bad times. the memories of us being together that cold nigh in vegas outside the billagio, or when she sang me that song ont he piano in the vip longue. those are teh memerories i want to remember and cherish. she loved me, and i loved her with everything. it just didnt work out, thats all. 3 weeks from our breakup, i still find myself wanting to talk, to smell, to hold her. she meant everything to me for a brief moment of my life, and the times and joys we shared, i will not forget, for they were the happiest ive been, ever. i love you trisha, and i always will.
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| basically...lets see...i predict a spring wedding for 2013 if khan finds a girl in college and 2014 if he finds a girl post grad. i predict that either A, he will meet his future sould mate sometime durring his sophmore year in college, she and khan will be "friends" only for about 2 years. very close friends but never crossing the line. sometime durring khan's senior year, most likely durrin gthe fall or winter, the two will finally become a couple. after 2.5-3 yeras of dating aprox around fall 2012, khan will propose to watever her name is. blha blha blha, they will have a spring wedding in 2013 and khan will owe me a steak dinner. i also think shes going to be traditionally relgious, in other words raised in a relgious family but she turns out to be forward thinking much like khan but sitll traditionally religious just because its nice to be old fashioned....unlike khan. or B, khan will meet this girl durrin gthe first year after grad, either abroad or through a friend. either way, 3 years of dating will ensure and an egagement proposal will occur aprox winter 2013, then a wedding, in spring 2014 and khan will owe me a lobster dinner.
if u meet a woman abroad, i dont htink she'll be full chinese or white, she's going to be mix. and slightly older
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| i think i finally got over my lil obsession. i've been saying how pathetic i've been. but now i realize, just how right i was. it really is quite funny now that i'm thinking straight again. hopefully my clearnmindedness will last. if not, well...that's too bad 4 me | | |
| wish i had a better time at grid. o well, some people had fun. so to those who did, congratulations. and those who had a lousy time, it's just a dance. always prom. | | |
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